When I was in college, the second time, God carried me many times. I had six kids at home, and was in an abusive marriage. It was so hard, I’m still amazed I made it. Lessons that God taught me in that time, he brings back often.
One of the most valuable lessons that he taught me, was his ability to overcome our inabilities. There was a class that I was having trouble with that I needed to graduate. It felt like a technological interference. I felt like I had the pieces, but they just would not come together. I struggled with big assignment that was due the following day. It was significant project, worth a good portion of my grade, and it just wasn’t happening. It was like looking at a pile of garbage that I absolutely could not make sense of. I was under a huge amount of stress at home, and my mind was suffering for it on top of this. I know myself enough to know that trying to struggle on through it was not going to help, but makes matters worse. Before I went to bed that night, I gave it to God. I told him that there was no way it was going to happen as things were. I felt stupid, stressed, confused, and crushed. If it was going to happen, he would have to do something. I did not see or know how he could possibly make me understand it, but that was the only way. There were many tears. I had come so far and now it seemed impossible. There wasn’t time to reschedule. It had to get done. I went to sleep crying, but left it with him. If God wanted me to graduate, than he would have to do something.
The next morning I woke up with complete clarity. I can’t explain how he did it, but I completely understood it. That had never happened before. I got to school as quickly as I could to complete it. I knew everything that I needed to know. I not only did well, but got an A on the project, and then finally an A in the overall class. Boom! God showed up in a mighty way for me. It was not only then, but also many times that I would have a paper or something due and I couldn’t get it all done. I worked as hard as I could, but life wouldn’t allow it for whatever reason. I can’t tell you how many times I got to class in those times, and the instructor said that something came up and the due date was pushed back. Other times the instructor had to miss the class for some reason and the date was moved. It got to the point that I watched for and expected it. He never failed me, not once.
Today, I am back to that place with my book. It feels sometimes with the battle, that I have been experiencing technological interference. There comes a time when I have to lay it down and wait for God to move in a big way. I know he will not fail me. I prophesy that the work will get done. His words will come forth. Perhaps he is just bringing me to that place of showing me again, that it’s not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord. It is time for the interference to go, in Jesus name!
Sometimes we just can’t cut our to do list down anymore. God may have us doing more things than we have capacity within ourselves to do. If he wants a work done, whether we are in need of clarity or capacity he will make a way for that work to get done.
Melicia Evans 